I Am Angry

I am angry
I should have known then what I know now
I am angry
For not standing up for myself
Placing my foot firmly on the floor
For not saying this is crazy
Goodbye, no thank you, no more

I am angry
I feel like I wasted so much time
I am angry
I don’t know what I would do differently
Even if I could push rewind
I am angry
I hurt myself and others
I am angry
I am human, imperfect
I did not have the answers

I was stuck
I was scared
I wanted to make it all just go away
But the problem was
That deep down inside
I wasn’t okay
I was sad, unhappy, lost and confused
And under that anger
I realized is sadness
Who knew